I MUST GO ON
Walking along
A darkened path
Grisley branches
Clawing and scraping
Fight to impede
I must go on
Blood soaked
Tattered clothes
Hide the true wounds
Seething flesh
Unnoticed...
I must go on
Crawling now
Darker it grows
Thorns like knives
Ripping and tearing
Slash to hold back
I must go on
Bloody rags
Caked with mud
Agonized flesh
Misleads the torment
Of a shattered soul
I must go on
Written 11/4/04
MOTHER EARTH
Fragments of thought
Bleed through decay
Humanities demise
Mother earth to pay
I am searching
Endless, beginningless
Pointless?
know not
Yet all answers are there
So much is lost
For physical gain
Mankind is the heroin
Shot into mother earth’s vein
Solutions... where?
Images of love
Fade to gray
Not yet lost
Boarder of extinction
Whales song echoes
Mother earth’s pain
Homosapiens to deaf
Too dumb to change
THE HAZE
Thought rains
In an unending turrent of emotion
Extracting reality from chaos
But which is which?
Through the drops I see form
Trembling and hazy
The torrential onslaught is not giving in
Force through to grasp the haze
Mold it into desires unspoken
Relinquish that which holds you back
Sieze and be seized
Feel and be felt
The thunder of the rain pounds
Pounds at the edge of what is and is not
I will hold this haze and be content
For now...
A FINAL GOODBYE
As I close my eyes dark without a way out
Drawn, I fall back
Slowly, arm's outstretched
My body drops and drifts
Slow motion, yet all is a blur
I watch as I disappear into the empty
Like Sinking into black water
I slowly sink beneath the surface
Holding my breath, heart beating faster
There is nothing but heart beats now
Echoing like thunder, then fading
They seem further and further apart
I try too remember before
To find footing as I fall further
Am I still falling? Or rising?
I feel the black swirl around me
Heart beats sound like a memory
Sounds far away and blurry
I blink to try to focus
Or was it a memory of blinking?
Where am I? Am I?
I am so aware... of nothing
Perception ceases
Thought falls to a lost memory
Empty consumes, yet never fills
Or does it?
PLAYLAND
Watch them run
Climb and swing
Sliding without a care
Purples and pinks
Yellows and blues
A new world to explore
Tubes and slides
Nets and tunnels
Discoveries waiting
A hundred small bodies
Absorbed in the now
Free to just be
Run this way
Now jump that way
Pause to ponder the next step
A screech of joy
A yell to another
Hey! Watch this!
Giggles and grins
Eyes wide and aware
I wish it were me in there
THE GLASS
I look into the glass
Reflections I do not remember
Flash before my eyes
The eyes that look back
Dark and alone
When did the light die out?
When did the fire burn out?
Recognition is lost
The vision fades to schemes
Remembrances of times lost
Who was that dancing in the grass?
Looking at the stars in awe?
Who was that?
Where did I go?
The shell glaring into my core
Full of contempt and remorse
Sunken, withered, withdrawn
Am I in there somewhere?
I see my flesh
But it is not me
I slowly reach out my leathery hand
Touching, tracing my fingers
Over what used to be alive
I feel something wet against my finger...
Is it hope?
I think it might be...
(another impromptu poem - written 4/1/05 while updating the site)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF?
When your child was born
What do you think of?
When you speak of that day?
Do you think of the new life?
The amazing beautiful child?
Or of the pain? The labor? The hours?
When you got married
What do you think of?
When you speak of that day?
Do you think of standing with your love?
Of your heart pounding with joy and anticipation?
Or of the cost? Arguing about planning? Battling parents?
Why do we focus so hard
On the pain, the hurt, the empty
Why do we explain in such detail
Our trials and tribulations?
Yet leave but a second
For the beauty, the success, the amazing
From a fragrant rose to an excited child
We see weeds that need pulling
And clothes that need washing
Love each moment and embrace the beauty all around
That fragrant rose needs smelling
That amazing, excited child needs loving
BRIGHT SPOTS
I find myself
Questioning again
Who is it that I am?
Why, what and how?
Are these firing synapses
Merely random discharges?
Is there reason behind?
I see sometimes
So clearly it scares me
Then it fades to gray
And once again
I am lost to the randomness
Of this lost society
I find another bright spot
I reach for it
It is warm and comforting
It is familiar and enriching
Symbiotic in the exchange
Sometimes the brightness grows
Sometimes it moves away
Sometimes it stays
Sometimes it fades out
Tears fill my soul at each
As I realize that it is me
That fades at times
And there is another seeing
Another that cries
Then I awake from "reality"
And look up with arms outstretched
And see all the amazing bright spots
And know that they never really fade
Even when change brings pain
And it seems the light has gone
It is still there watching
We have only to look, see and feel it
FADING AWAY
Fractured thoughts
Bleed their way though
Droplets of me
Crash into nothingness
Splashing their crimson pain
I feel myself fading
Faster they fall
Flowing freely now
I clutch feebly as they fall
Cascading over my hands
The torrent, unrelenting
Taking all that I am
Pouring it away
I watch as I fade
My essence washed away
Leaving a shell of paper flesh
One drop remains
Glistening, hanging on
Seeking to find it's way back
To create anew
Dangling, weaving slowly
It falls
THE WAKING MOMENT
The waking moment
Seems like the dream
The dream slowly fades
Reality is a nightmare
That is perpetuated
By non thought
The ants that never stop
Are us that no longer sees
The lack of connection
The lack of compassion
Delivered by fast food
We see but are blind
We feel what we are told is right
We regurgitate without thought
We take what is given
Without thought for what is real
Real is what we're told
And we're told what to want
What we want is an illusion
To what it is we really need
We've forgotten love
Replaced with desire
Grasping at the things
That we use to fill our emptiness
Why do we not see?
SEEKING
Even when I look
I sometimes do not see
I try to find myself
Within a false reality
One I created
Thinking I knew
The way to myself
Was so untrue
As I close my eyes
It slowly gets clearer
I stop the if's
Truth draws nearer
Hold onto hope
See with the heart
Know reality
From within it starts
Create with passion
That which we seek
Be strong in the dark
Fear only makes weak
Now when I look
I see without eyes
I find what's always been
I've finally realized
A NEW DAY
A new day
Sun rays gleaming
Reflecting the passing
Of the cold and dark
A chill lingers
To remind us
Not to forget
A new day
Leaves budding
Bringing new life
And hope for the now
Warm rays shine
To remind us
Today is where we are
MOMENT
Forever in the moment
Thoughts turn inward
Reflected like the moon on water
Shimmering around the possibilities
I slowly sway in the tranquility of the moment
Nirvana-esque in it's sublime truth and simplicity
Hold it gently…
Treasure it’s beauty…
And remember
DO AS I SAY
Victorias a young girl
Of just 13
Brought up to obey
To follow blindly
Do as I say
Not as I do, to you
Born a sinner
On your knees to please
Daddies little girl
God fearing
Take it quietly
Satan's nearing
Do as I say
Not as I do, to you
Born a sinner
On your knees to please
Confess your sins
Father says you deserve
Beg forgiveness
Whose gods words?
Do as I say
Not as I do, to you
Born a sinner
On your knees to please
It's getting dark
Time for bed
A little less pain
Daddy just wants head
Do as I say
Not as I do, to you
Born a sinner
On your knees to please
Did you say your prayers?
Kneeling by your bed?
Visions of the beast
Killing him dead
Do as I say
Not as I do, to you
Born a sinner
On your knees to please
Franz 2005
BENEFITS OF NOT HAVING YOUR OWN WASHER & DRYER
A moment to me, as I wait
Vaguely aware of the rattling voices in the background
Their quiet ramblings melt into the mindless box
Which echoes their mindless conversations
Slow rumble and quiet clicks blur it all to white noise
I stare at a silvery machine, pondering my surroundings
As the shapes that go with the voices go about thier business
My business rumbles behind me quietly clicking and tumbling
I wait and think to the hum around me.
LOOK DEEPLY
Look up into my eyes
Look deeply
Shimmers and dreams
Hopes and fears
Love and sorrow
Triumphs and setbacks
Happiness and anger
Lookup into your own eyes
Look deeply
Are we that different?
NEW YEAR
As the door slowly closes
Glance back
pause, reflect
Look at all that is there
Find the amazing
it is there
if you but look and see
Cherrrish as the images pass
Hold, then release
Turn slowly
Softly close the door
Do not lock it
Touch the door gently
Close your eyes
Look forward
towards the open door
That lays ahead
Throw it open
Look brightly at the beyond
Stop...
Look around you
Notice your feet
What you are standing on
See the now
Hold the now with all you have
Take what you can
The sounds
The smells
The sights
Realize and step
Stop with each step
And hold onto what is there
~Happy New Year...
Take what you can from the memories, but do not live in them. Look brightly towards the future, but do not live in them either. Relish this very moment and each moment that passes. Let them flow gently through your life. Take in and see the amazing that is all around you. With each door we close behind us, we allow a new door to open. Through even pain, allow it to live where it is. Do not lock it away behind you, but let it stay behind you. Use it to strengthen your next step.
May we all see the infinite beauty that is all around us and within each of us. May we all allow ourselves to live in the now. May we all allow the people around us to be them without judgement. May we all learn to accept without giving up. May we all find prosperity. May we all find joy. May we all find peace and most of all, may we all find, have and give love.
BE. well, smile lots and love most
Franz~
CHANGE
The air changes again
The cool breeze spins a lone leaf
Drifting away, it's task complete
I look up at the few that cling
Refusing to let go
Refusing to move on
Are we so different?
Change is inevitable
It is coming
It is not the end
Why are we so afraid?
Let go, fullfill and BE
It is all we need to do
To be, as we are
We are already whole and complete
There is nothing we need to get
Other than the realization
That it is already perfect
The we are already pefect
Cheange is inevitable
And it is good
It is necessary
It brings new beginnings
There are no endings
Live now and enjoy
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NEVER FADING AWAY
Leave behind it all
The final curtain call
As the road splits
Stand before it
Choose a road
Carry the load
Sometimes alone
The highway drone
Stare into the dark
Feels cold and stark
Then look to the sky
Stars seem to fly
Always shining
Silently reminding
Warming and alive
Like twinkling eyes
Will you love less each day?
Will horrible thoughts decay?
Fade, fade away,
Love a little less in every way...
Think no more as it all fades away...
Fade...fade away...
Think no more as it all fades away…
Time like the wind
Brings change with it
Though the scape may change
The Foundation stays the same
Carry within
Peace begin
Saplings become forests
New life springs forward
Never lose sight
Know that it's allright
Oceans may collide
It's all part of the ride
I will not love less each day
Good thoughts will bring what may
I will not fade away
I will love more in every way
I will think more to not fade away
I will not fade away
I will think more to not fade away
REMEMBER
Thinking in a dark room
Etheral remembrances fading
Consciousness sliding
Reaching to a hope that lingers
I feel the moment slipping
It is a quiet decent
Abruptly it ends with a light
Again, consciousness slides
Thoughts come back into focus
Only to blur just beyond grasp
Will I remember?
THE ROSE
Racing Around Ourselves
In the flight of life
Scenery is flashing by
To fast to watch the rose
Consumed with our quests
Of the things not real
Just one more - then another
To absorbed to see the rose
Onto our social stepping stone
we climb with vigor
Grasping for what he has
To busy to touch the rose
Non-stop twenty four seven
No time to even sleep
We blaze with intentions
To tired to play with the rose
Now the end is nearing
Blurriness finally clears
Frightened, saddened realization
To late, the rose is gone
A BLANK PAGE
A blank page
Stares at me
Mirroring the empty room
That once was my soul
Words used to flow
like fountains of the gods
Images of love
Thoughts of hope
Caressed the delicate papers
Amazing how powerful
Something so fragile can be
now the once exquisite room
Lay empty and cold
Walls once adorned
With fabrics of passion
Slowly crumble away
The once warming fireplace
Blackened, cracked and cold
As I sit alone
In the middle of decay
Pen in hand
The paper turns to dust
REFLECTING
Sitting on the fence
Of lifes memories
I ponder the wind
As it blows them past me
I hear their whispers
I feel them calling
Soft voices in the grass
I feel myself falling
Laying in the grass
The clouds spinning by
Dancing with my heart
My soul starts to cry
A teardrop falls
Splashes the earth
A lone rose breaches
Soul tears rebirth
The sky slowly darkens
Angry clouds race
Crashing with remorse
Their sadness I taste
Splashing me with sorrow
The raging clouds weave
Swirling dark desires
Low rumbling pleads
The storm fades away
Leaving a star lit sky
Cold yet comforting
I watch the stars float by
Shimmers reflect hope
Their light races through time
their persistence and shine
Reflected with mine
A WINTER RIDE
Sitting in my car
Musics Gift around me
Moving my soul
Sounds resounding
A soft blanket
Fends off the cold
Softly falling snow
Caresses the road
Through snowy mountains
I steer through the curves
The road stretches ahead
Pondering lessons I've learned
Landscape coated white
It's silent allure
Peaceful and stark
Innocent and pure
Another turn another bump
The road stretches on
Soft smile warm look
Uncertainty gone
I open the window
To feel the cold air
I close my eyes
Breath to make clear
Chills of knowledge
Acceptance and resolve
Flow across my body
At last fears dissolved
RAGING WATERS
I watch from the edge
The place you stood
When the world stopped
I've never understood
What did your eyes see?
What did your heart say?
What did you think of?
As you let it all go away...
CHORUS
The raging waters
Did they wash away the pain?
The raging waters
Did they make it all go away?
The raging waters
Are still raging today
I imagine the moment
Your decision was made
When the world stopped
Inescapable pain
What did your eyes see?
What did your heart say?
What did you think of?
As you let it all go away...
CHORUS repeat
BRIDGE
I remember another time
Without all the pain
I remember when your world
Had dreams that remained
I remember before
And that's where you'll remain
ARE WE THAT LOST?
What a species
Lost in ourselves
Our feelings governed
By the medias push
United in tragedy
Divided in harmony
How quickly we forget
When the coverage changes
We mindlessly follow
Our hearts go out
Until the channel changes
To the tragedy flavor of the day
History repeats itself
Unless we learn from the past
Leave behind indifference
Lay to rest self consumption
With tolerance comes hope
With compassion comes change
WAYS
Look up
Believe in possibility
Take hold
Leave impossibility
Stand up
Breath tranquility
Reach out
Release hostility
Embrace
Take responsibility
Find hope
Not futility
Understand
Be flexibility
Trust in
Your capability
Hold loves
Magic ability
CHOOSE NOW
Contemplating again
Thoughts drift
Sorting the threads
Carefully sift
Seeking the treasures
That shape desire
The tiny glimmer
That feeds fire
Choices are paths
That weave and entwine
Bring together
With lessons we find
Chance is fiction
Fate is an excuse
Coincidence isn't
Choices we choose
Hind-site remembers
Foresight forgets
Now isn't seen
It all equals regrets
I choose now
This very instant
I relish my words
Hope persistent
NOW
In the moment
I lose hesitation
I believe without fear
I forget reservation
I become empowered
To create my reality
Again I see so clearly
My totality
I understand again
I know the way
I see what I forgot
I start today
Yesterday but a memory
Tomorrow is never here
I am in the NOW
I will no longer fear
STOP
Not sure what to say
Time erodes
Memories fade
Thinking past
Yesterdays dreams
Stop...
Thinking...
Thoughts are never
What they seem
Hiding in the clouds
Perception is lost
Fears lead the way
Stop...
Fearing...
What is known
Has always been known
What is forgotten
Can awaken
If it is allowed
Stop...
Now, go on again...
A THOUGHT
A thought
Falls like a tear
Or was it a raindrop?
With each a reflection of a memory
Of a hope
Of a dream
A hand reaches out
Catches the drop
Watches as it cascades
Slides around and finally settling
I see myself watching
Looking into the reflection
Reflection of possibilities
Another falls and lands close by
I look into it
And see the reflection of hope
And slowly they merge
And I see myself
Looking again, searching
A shimmer gleams up at me
Yes, I know what it is
The hands closes to take back
To hold on to, to save
And remembers...
MORALITY
I look for truths
Veiled by social morality
Self proclaimed pundits
Spouting their obscenities
Can you not see?
Are you really that blind?
Deceit masquerades
As moral obligation
Whose morality are you living?
I LOOKED
I looked up at the sky today
A cloud winked as it drifted by
I reached up my hand to catch it
But I was not fast enough
I watched as it disappeared
Leaving behind only an image
I looked up at the mountains today
They watched silently back
I reached up my hand to touch them,
But I could not hold on tight enough
I watched as I slipped down
Leaving pieces around me
I looked up at the trees today
It waved silently to me
I reached up my hand to touch a leaf
But I could not reach it
I watched as the leaves died away
Leaving only a bare shell
I looked into a pond today
It looked right back at me
I reached out my hand to caress it
But it slipped though my fingers
I watched as I disappeared
Leaving waves of what was
SOMETIMES-A LOT-ALWAYS
I wonder sometimes
I ponder a lot
I feel always
I understand sometimes
I contemplate a lot
I trust always
I listen to my head sometimes
I understand my heart a lot
I believe in myself always
THE WORLD
The world drifts
On a wave of superficiality
Seeing only the surface
Lost to the beauty
That lies beneath
And above
CREATE
So we move on again
Drifting within the realms that mystify
Do you believe?
What is real is what we create
What we create is a figment
We are not tied to it
We are not bound
By the chains of our pasts
Nor the held down
By the weight of what's yet to be
Unless we decided it to be so
Change is inevitable...
Or is it?
Be not stuck with habits
You are free if you want
You are the shaper of you
Of what's around you
I am creating
I am living
I am loving
I will always be
I reach out
What will you do?
And so goes the journey....
DID YOU SEE?
Walking a path
The sky spread before me
Hills and valleys call
Straining to see
What lays beyond the next turn
What is that field of?
Is that tree in the distance bigger?
What beauty awaits me over that mountain?
I start to run now, anxious to see
Out of breath I stop for a moment
I look back...
There are those stumps that tripped me up
If only I hadn't stumbled...
That mud puddle slowed me so
Ok, that pool was pretty
I wish I had stayed there longer
Why didn't I pay more attention?
There was so much to see
That group of trees
Had so much to share
I rushed past, too fast
I've caught my breath again
Slowly I stand
The past is all gone |
